Shades of Life (Fifth Color)

When I come to think about the recent happenings around, not just here, rather in the whole world, many questions arose, finding the answers to which is really not an easy task. Leave alone the search for answers about the world, most of us tend to undermine the questions of our own life and really unable to find even a clue to most of them.

One such question, or for that matter, the one that comes to most of us at some or the other point in our lives is “Instability”. This Instability pertains to many aspects of life, be it, social, professional, personal or any other.

If one really works his ass off in search to find out the real reason behind such or any other instability one faces, they would get confusion and nothing else, in return.

Taking an example of relational instability; how many times you have come to know about a hint of something going on in someone’s life, close to you. Your mind starts wandering; looking for the myriad possibilities, but ends up getting confused and instability in the relation arise.

But looking at it, one reason that we get to know is the absence/lack of information. Yes, most of us will agree that the strongest reason for the instability of human in various facets of their lives is the absence/lack of information. When we really are unable to understand what is happening around and decoding it to a single aspect, seems impossible which leads to instability and confusion happens.

Now this is not where the story ends. Confusion still continues, as only the lack of information doesn’t cause this instability, rather there are other aspects which lead to it.

How many times did it happen with you that you have gone for shopping and you have liked something in the first look, but didn’t buy, to look for something else, something better and then end up buying nothing at all? What do you think did cause that instability, on the thing that you liked at first? Any clues?

Even a small amount of analytical analysis will tell you, that the availability of excess information also causes this instability. For more and more things that you come to know, it again leads to a point where your mind is unable to solve the web thus formed, and enters a state of instability.

So an instability and confusion is caused both by the absence/lack and excess of information.

Now my next question is; what is the right amount of information which must be provided for the proper understanding of the other being and for it to behave in a desired manner. This answer is again a subjective and leading to it is a no path that one could yet find out. And there really exists nothing more than a thin line between the lack and the excess of information, which when crossed becomes incomprehensible to the other person.

Standing at a cross road, I sometimes believe, why is there so much confusion and what do I really need to get pass through, and reach a state of Nirvana. I could find no answers but could find many things which let me forget the question.

Shades of Life (Fourth Color)

Facing an Alter-Ego




How do you really feel when, someone like you is standing just in front you? Does that give you a feeling of elation or instead of a depression? To reach up to such a decision so quickly I believe is not an easy task, and rather depends upon lot factors, including who you really are and what you really show yourself to be.

Before anything else, first question that comes to my mind is whether you are really able to judge the other person or not, or you are just entangled within the deception net that the other person has thrown. In case of such a possibility, the very first point of taking someone as your alter-ego falters.

Analysis of the alter-ego comes at a stage quite after that, when the person in question has a real judgment power and an understanding of the other person is true to the best of his knowledge. Then and there, two major calculations that came into being are of elation or of depression. The two depends on the very simple fact that how much you love and believe in yourself, an absence of which is going to create a complete incoherence and hence the feeling of depression. It also clears out the fact that if you don’t consider your own deeds to be right, and your own shortcomings push you down, then nothing in this world is going to make you love your alter-ego, and a feeling of elation of finding one is impossible.


But if you believe in the part which is good about you, and have the clear understanding of your own capabilities, then you are going to look for the same in the other person. Everyone is so clear of their own needs and so nothing in this world is going to make them feel that they don’t know this person and satisfying their needs is not a difficult task, but just what they need is the power to come out of their shell and understand that satisfying the others ego is what needs to be done, and thence do it. An ego plays a major barricade in this case and thus should be kept aside, come what may. Elation simply follows this simple rule and nothing would stop you to really love the person.

A fear also erupts in the third case, when you know your own ugly face that you have hidden from the world, and on finding an alter-ego, you just hate them for they reminds you of the wicked soul that you yourself are.

Confused, on what is being just what said? That’s what really happens, when you face an alter-ego and can’t stay aloof, but to know them and to face the bitter truth that what you have been thinking is for your own self, someone right there has the same feeling.