Lost by 4 Days....Version 1.Dil

Lost by 4 Days

A New story coming from my own life, its not a fiction as my past life stories available on my web-pages. As might be suggested by the name, it is not a story about loosing a cricket game, its not about loosing a project or a business deal, not even about falling short of a certain goal but about loosing in simple affair of Life.

This affair can be seen in your day to day life but the way it has happened with me, that is unusual. This event turned me upside down. I am not dis-heartened because i lost it as loosing and winning in life continues but rather because i lost it by “4 days”. Or in other words, i should say that there is no winning or loosing in these things but still it hurts.

So the story goes here.....

It started a few weeks back, when i met a girl online. We started chatting a lot and then exchanged mobile phone no's. Talking a lot about each other everyday. How was our lives, how we want them to be and many other questions about life. I was beginning to feel so comfortable with and around her. Don't begin to feel, that we have seen each other. We are still unknown, looks wise(although exchanged pics a a week back) but we know a each other much better than those who know us otherwise. And in some time, it started making me feel that she is an amazing girl that i met. She is a great friend of mine and I am a great friend of hers too. Whether there can be anything more between us or not, i never thought of any such possibilities.

Until one day, when we started talking on phone at around midnight and went on for a few hours. What the context of that days call was nothing more than but a feeling that we are so much alike and so much more would be if we spend a little more time together and try to come closer for each other and to know each other. Nothing was particular or clear and I was afraid as well, to make it so. So decided to wait for some time before i tell her that.

3-4 days after that, we were talking again about the same thing, and some thought came to my mind and i decided that i should tell her right now. So i did. She gave a long pause... then she replied. Her answer was something strange, and i am never the same again.

She said to me, “I would have, if you would have asked me 4 days back”. I was broken and made a little more effort to convince her but just felt its of no use. Not because of any other reason but just because forcing a relation has no meaning for me. People call me stubborn but don't understand that, i do it only with those, whom i think i have a right on.

Whatever,

So there can be a few morals of the story

• Never wait for anything
• Girls are just a mad creature that can do anything at any point of time.

It started with in a totally spurious way and has ended in the same way, with me just left amazed. Still thinking about it, “butterflies roll in my stomach”. But there is nothing i can do.

I was dumbstruck with what has happened and couldn't believe what she said. And right now, the only feeling I am left with is “I Lost by 4 Days”

Originally Posted: July, 2006